Monday, November 28, 2005

Engineers lol

Friday, November 25, 2005

And the tag goes on ...

2 names you go by: Nody , Nana
2 parts of your heritage: Egyprtian , Turkish
2things that scare you: Death , Fear
2 of your favorite bands or musical artists : Linkinpark , 3 doors down
2 things you want in a relationship (other than real love): Don't want a relationship . But if i'm in one They'd be warmth and understanding
2 physical things that appeal to you (in the opposite sex): Strong hands , Kind eyes
2 things you want really badly: 7osn el5tam , Finish college with good grades ( a miracle lol )
2 places you want to go on vacation: Greece , Syria
2 things you want to do before you die: Hijj , Change destiny
2 ways that you are stereotypically a dude/chick: Being crazy , Living chaeoticaly
2 things you are thinking about now: Am i ging to enjoy tomorrow's trip to dream park ? , Am i going to catch up with my studies this week .
2 stores you shop at: Nike , Salsa( gift shop )
2 people you would like to see take the quiz?: Laura( southernxyl ) , Omernos

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Back to life .

This world don’t give you nothing it can’t take away
Everybody holding on to something
Nobody wants to fade away
No forgiveness on the streets of this town
I left my patience at a traffic light
There’s no denying that I almost lost it
Threw in the towel, too tired to fight
Tonight I need you
More than yesterday
Tonight I need you
Take me, touch me, hold me like you mean it
Make me come alive
Hurt me, heal me, come and make me feel it
Rescue me tonightLove me back to life
These days I’d trade sight for feeling
There are days my feeling’s gone
Can’t figure out whose life I’m living
I don’t know right from wrong
When I lost my faith
You found it and gave it back to me
There’s a new light on your halo; it took blind eyes to see
That I need youMore than yesterday
Yeah, I need you
Take me, touch me, hold me like you mean it
Make me come alive
Hurt me, heal me, come and make me feel it
Rescue me tonight
Love me back to life
Take me, touch me, hold me like you mean it
Make me come alive
Hurt me, heal me, come and make me feel it
Rescue me
Take me, touch me, hold me like you mean it
Make me come alive
Hurt me, heal me, come and make me feel it
Rescue me tonight
Love me back to life
Love me back to life
Love me back to life
Love me back to life

Bon jovi never fail to get me with it . But this time it goes out to someone . Hope they'd feel it someway .

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Birthday girl? who? me =D

Surprise Surprise !!!!!
19/ 11 Last Saturday was my official birthday . And unfortunatly , Some of my friends tried to make me a surprise birthday party . You are probably wondering why i am saying unfortunatly .
Well , here's the thing ...
I live in Alexandria . But lots of my friends are from Cairo , Shebeen Elkom , Mnof and Elmansoura . Say that N , S , Z , L , O ,H & M are my friends from outside Alexandria .
And the story begins
On a given day a couple of weeks ago i recieved a phone call from M . He asked if it's ok with me if i pick up the cds he made for my birthday from S when i go to Shebeen ( i was supposed to go there last week ) . I really laughed and i told him he was good at making surprise . ( Backthen i thought he'd be the worst )
After a few days . N called to ask me when S was coming to Alexandria . N said that they've had lots of fights and she didn't want to come to Alexandria on the same day S is . She said that because of S she had to ruin her surprise and tell me that she was coming . I told N that i didn't know when S was coming because i didn't even know he was coming , she went blank . I gotta say i should have known S was coming since M told me what he told me . But i didn't guess . After she'd checked back with S , N called back to tell me that neither S nor N was coming . ( Fortunatly i wasn't stupid enough to believe her )
Anyway , Last Tuesday was my last mid-term exam . After finishing it . We were having a birthday party for one of my new( so called ) friends in college . And after blowing out the candles , i recieved another phone call from N . It was a short one . She only told me that she was waiting for me in the street where i lived . I went home as quick as possible . Took her with me . She stayed with me till Sunday .
Later on , in Friday . i was sitting with N and some of my friends from Alexandria .One of them (Y)recieved a call then . I only heard him say the following " Hey there , When are you cooming? ok call me when you get here. what ?Nada is not supposed to know this? " then lots of giggling and he excused himself .
After going home , With N . I got another call . From L . She said that she needed to see me urgently . I told her that i already had plans . Besides , N is there and S is coming and i didn't know who else . So , she told me that Z,O &H are coming for my birthday . And that they are all coming to pick me up from college to go ( somewhere) . L told me to at surprised as they'd kill her if they found out she's ruined the plan they worked on for so long .
Adding to them . The friends in common with me and N , S , L , O , Z & H from Alexandria and my personal friends from Alexandria .
See , the problem is except for the ones who exchanged calls . The rest of my friends don't know eachothers . And the ones who do , don't like eachothers .
I guess you can all tell what kind of mess i was in that day . A call every 60 seconds , people wanting me in different places and i couldn't have let them down . After all , they came all the way from different cities just to say Surprise Surprise .
And now , the fact that 25/11 is my non official birthday is bugging me . I don't know what my reaction could be if anyone called or showed up that day .
Another problem , now that they are all gone . I miss them so much and i feel so lonely .
P.S. I found out i'm really bad at acting surprised .

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

The simple things ...

We seem to waste a lot of chances to smile each single day . Look around you . The world could be coming down to an end . It could be full of hate , war , betrayal and misery . But in the end there are thousands and thousands of little stuff that could truly make us happy . We seem to have lost the ability to see them some point along the way . It's not about the money . It's not about the fame .It's not about the academic degree . It's about you and me really enjoying our days . After all , you only get one life to live .
The reason I'm saying these stuff is that today I was talking to a friend and he was saying that there isn't one single reason for him to wake up each day in the morning .
So , I bet him he could find ten simple great stuff that happened eachday in his life . He raised me the same bet .
So , Today for me they are :
1- I had time to have a cup of coffee before my exam .
2- A friend gave me a red rose .(I don't like them red but still roses are a good cheer up )
3-I played that song "sail away " over and over again and it made me feel relaxed .
4- My mum kissed me good morning and good night .
5- I had a chat with my sister online(She is in Argentina)
6- My friend Mayosh called me .
7- Hot water came back today (YUPPIE LOL)
8- I had an orange for desert . :)
9- My uncle paid me a visit . I missed him .
10- I had time to post on the blog .
Now, does this mean I had a great day? Not necessarily . I had lots of downs too . But that's the way life goes . Ups and Downs till the end .
Hey everyone , HIGH/LOW today ?


وشوش الناس حكايات بتحكي تاريخ الكون . و أنا صغيرة كنت متعودة كل يوم و أنا راجعة من المدرسة , أركب جمب الشباك عشان أتفرج على الناس . اللي بيضحك و اللي بيكدب اللي بيشكي و اللي بيبكي اللي بيتخانق و اللي بيحب واللي و اللي واللي . كل واحد فينا له طريقة بيعبر بيها عن نفسه . و وشه هو المرايا اللي بينعكس فيها رد فعله حتى لما بيبقى عايز يخبي ممكن نبرة الصوت تكون بتبين أكتر بس مش الكل يقدر يحسها
الغريبة إني عمري ما حبيت الفرجة من الشباك كنت دايما بعتبرها تضييع وقت و نوع من أنواع السلبية . كنت و لا زلت بربطها بالشخصيات الضعيفة اللي بتحب الدنيا بس بتخاف تعيشها فبتكتفي بإنها تتفرج على الناس من فوق . عشان كدة بقولكم إن المسألة مسألة وشوش عشان من الشباك من فوق مش ممكن تلاحظ تعبيرات وش البني آدم لكن وسط الناس تقدر
ممكن أكون لغاية دلوقتي متأثرة بالموضوع دة . في العادي بأخد بالي من ردود أفعال اللي أعرفهم قبل ما حد يلاحظ . و ممكن أكون بتحكم في الطريقة اللي بتظهر فيها ردود أفعالي حسب أكتر من ناس كتير أعرفها . حاول مرة تنزل تشرب قهوتك في كافيتريا لوحدك منغير صحاب أو كتاب . حاول تتفرج على وشوش الناس . شوف حتلاحظ قد إيه من تصرفاتك و تحركاتك . شوف حتشوف نفسك في كام و حتعجبك نفسك ولا لأ
أصحابي عمرهم ما فهموا أنا ليه بحب أشرب قهوتي لوحدي(من غيرهم) في الكافيتريا . بصراحة مش دايما ببقى بعمل كدة سعات ببقى مجرد عايزة شوية هدوء عشان أفكر ... (بس مقدرش أقولهم كدة هاهاها مش مستغنية عن باقي عمري ) طولت عيكم كفاية كدة
في وشوش تشوفها ترتاحلها تشتاقلها.... يصعب عليك ترمش عنيك و إنت معاها و جمبها...وشوش في الزحمة تلقاها تتوه الزحمة وياها....ولو تشوف فرح في عيونها, تهدى جروحك و تصفى روحك....و يوم ما تحزن, يزيد همك و يسري السم في دمك....وشوش بتلمس كل قلب, منغيرها دنيتنا عذاب و بيها يحلى أي درب

Monday, November 07, 2005

Honesty .....People !!

What's wrong with saying the truth . Hey come on , It's not a crime . Say what you mean and mean what you say or shut up . And I meant that . What's so hard about just speaking what's on your mind and accepting what's on others' minds .
When somebody asks me a question . They are supposed to want what I truly think . Not what they want to hear . It's that easy really : Only ask a question when you want to hear an answer .
There's some kind of secret code that I don't know about . I'll give you an example :
Do I look fat? Ofcourse not .
Isn't he/she the one wrong? Sure .
Do I look tired today ? Nah . You look wonderful .
Sorry, did I wake you up ? No . I've been up all night .
Well how do they do that? I mean if the answers are correct , then fine . But if not , then why say so .
I was sitting with a group of friends today and I told them to imagine a day of truth . They asked for what I meant and I told them what if just for one day everyone in this college spoke their mind . If you are mad at somebody , go tell him/her and tell him/her why . If you have feelings for someone go tell him/her . If you have a crazy thought that you wouldn't normally discuss it , go say it outloud ( a more violent version of the movie liar liar LOL ) . They all laughed and told me that the blood shed in the world would be doubled because of my single day of truth .

In a few moments a couple of them started fighting . They seem to've tried my way of living for a few moments and it didn't go so well . Well , it's easier that way for me . Or maybe it's the only way I know . Gets me into lots of trouble though .
Later that day , I was taking a microbus home with a group of friends . And one of them (a guy) wanted to pay the tickets . So he said "would you mind if I payed?" I said "Thanks, but yes I do." . He said "it's ok you could pay for me tomorrow . Just let me pay today" . And i said " thanks but no thanks " . He said I was being stubborn and crazy and I said saying the truth and doing the right normal thing is never so . I could tell he felt bad about it because he didn't say a word all the way home . What is it with guys and paying girls anyway ? And I only said the truth about what I felt about his offer so there wasn't anything wrong about it . Maybe a little rude but right .
if you were offered a day of truth would you take it ?I know I would but would you ?

Sunday, November 06, 2005

كتبت و قد أيقنت يوم كتابتي بأن يدي تفني و يبقى كتابها فأن كتبت خيراً ستجزى بمثله وإن كتبت شراً عليها حسابها

Friday, November 04, 2005

Answers .

Been tagged. So , here we go ...

Current Location:Home sweet home Alexandria, Egypt
Eye Color:Hazel
Hair Color:Dark
Height:170 Cms
Right Handed or Left Handed:Right Handed
Your Heritage:Do you really have enough time ?
The Shoes You Wore Today:Cream Nike snickers
Your Weakness:My Friends
Your Fears:Death
Your Perfect Pizza:Prawn pizza from pizza hut . It’s like no other .
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:Pass… hopefully..
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:Arabic : ma 3alena English : oic
Thoughts First Waking Up:Oh my God . I am late . I am late . I am late .They are gonna kill me
Your Best Physical Feature:Well… Tough one . They are all ... just kidding . I’m not that ugly . my eyes I guess
Your Bedtime:Wait a minute! Nobody ever told me there should be one ….
Your Most Missed Memory:Nah . I have more than one .
Pepsi or Coke:The diet one.
MacDonalds or Burger King:Yukky. I hate them both .
Single or Group Dates:Neither.
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:Did you just say ice.. I’d go for anything with ice …
Chocolate or Vanilla:Vanilla but if it’s ice cream then anything. Didn’t I tell you about my ice addiction .
Cappuccino or Coffee:Ah .. another one of my addictions
Do you Smoke:Nah I’m usually the one kicking smokers out of the room . No offence if you do .
Do you Swear:Rarely
Do you Sing:Yeah when nobody can hear . No need for more sound pollution in the world .
Do you Shower Daily:Yeah and the hot water doesn’t work these days . It was raining today and I was freezing .
Have you Been in Love:Hey , does anyone really still believe in that fairy tale? I sure don’t .
Do you want to go to College:I'm already there . No thanks . You wouldn’t happen to know a way out ?would you ?
Do you want to get Married:Not in this lifetime .
Do you believe in yourself:Yeah .. but I’d like to think not to the extent of being conceited .
Do you get Motion Sickness:Rarely .
Do you think you are Attractive:Who knows?
Are you a Health Freak:Nope
Do you get along with your Parents:

..mmm.. My sister is in Argentina
My dad is in Oman .
My mum is never home .
As long as we are that apart , we do. But when we first come nearer …nah.
Do you like Thunderstorms:I’m indifferent to them .
Do you play an Instrument:I’d like to play electric guitar though I don’t .
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:I never did .
In the past month have you Smoked:I never did .
In the past month have you been on Drugs:I never was .
In the past month have you gone on a Date:Nope .
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:Yep .
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:Nope .
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:Yep.
In the past month have you been on Stage:Nope .
In the past month have you been Dumped:Noooooo!!
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:Nope
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:Never did .
Ever been Drunk:Nah .
Ever been called a Tease:Only when I want to . hehe . I could be mean at times .
Ever been Beaten up:Hell no .
Ever Shoplifted:Nah .
How do you want to Die:Praying .
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:An icecream :P
What country would you most like to Visit:The one and only “Greece”

In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:Dark ones
Favourite Hair Color:Dark black.
Short or Long Hair:Whatever fits the face
Height:The taller the better .
Weight:Slim is good .
Best Clothing Style:Sportish and funky ( But not that funky) I do appreciate ties in formal parties though .
Number of Drugs I have taken:Zero .
Number of CDs I own:Count the number of seeds in a watermelon and then I’ll count them. Deal?
Number of Piercings:Zero .
Number of Tattoos:temporary , one , scorpion .
Number of things in my Past I Regret:Regret is a waste of time .

شط إسكندرية...

شط البحر رحمة . ممكن يكون الواحد في أسوأ حالاته بس لما بيقابل الموج بينسى كل حاجة . و مش بينسى بالظبط . لأن البحر مش بينسي البحر بيذكر . أفهمكم قصدي . قصدي إن البحر مش بيهدي الواحد غير لما بيبقى الحزن اللي هو فيه مبني على حزن . أصل الواحد لما ببقى حزين . البحر بيفكره برحمة ربنا ونعمه علينا , بيفكره بهموم باقي الناس و بالحجات الجميلة اللي في حياته زي منظر البحر اللي بيبقى قدامه . لكن لما بيبقى الواحد حزنه مبني على فرح . البحر مش بيهديه . بالعكس بيهيجه أكتر علشان كعادته بيذكرك بحلاوة فرحتك و بمدى السعادة اللي إنت كنت فيها . و مش بيبقى محتاج يذكرك بإن اللحظة اللي بتروح عمرها ما بترجع . لأن إنت ساعتها بتفتكر دة لوحدك . مهما كان قلبك بيتمنى أيام فرحك ترجع تاني بتبقى عارف أن مش كل الأمنيات بتتحقق . و أكيد أمنية زي دي عمرها ما حتتحقق
" I tried so hard to tell myself that you are gone . But though you are still with me , i've been alone all alone . "

Success ... who cares?

Life is not about the number of breaths you take . It's about the moments that take your breath away .
It's rather strange how people rate the success of their lives or of others' . They value it by how much money you've earned , how much you've achieved academically or what projects you made . I don't see how any of these could be worth while if you are not really happy . Life is not a numerical problem . It's got feelings , passion , affection & lots of other stuff that can't be simplified as numbers . It'd be totally unfair to leave them out of the equation . If you don't enjoy being a so called successful engineer , then go surf or sing or do whatever makes you happy .
Life is too short to be wasted on moments not taking your breath away because these moments are truly suffocating ones .

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

كلمات ليست كالكلمات

There's something strange about arabic songs websites . It's that there's always the song .But never the lyrics . Few sites offer the words along with the song . And even these sites don't offer all songs .
Well , here is the best site that i found offering both songs and lyrics . It's not always accurate but it's the best i could find . Hope you enjoy it .

And here are some mix of songs that i like . i didn't mention the names of the artists on purpose . If you don't know who's the artist .Enjoy finding out . درب الهوى هما مالهم بينا يا ليل خلص الدمع حبك ليا عاشق بحب قولي بحبك حبك وجع حاولت أنساك قد ما تقدر أنا مش بعيد مكان في القلب يا رب لما النسيم

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

The only way out is in.

They say that when you're in trouble , you can never see clearly . I (as usual) disagree they tell you to let someone else do the math of that problem because you are the one who is in it, just say no . Don't get me wrong they mean you no harm . But they think you can see the problem from the inside only because you are trapped in it . On the other hand whoever else can only see the problem from the outside . No matter how hard anyone else would try , you are still going to be the only one who really knows what's going on . Simply because you are the one who's going through it . If you can only the inside and they can only see the outside , then follow their opinion . But who said you can only see the inside ? Concentrate and relax . Act as if You are just watching the problem not living it . All the rest depends on your ability to think straight while being under a lot of stress . If you've got that part handled , then it's your party .
Let's say you are locked up in a maze , tied up with a snake , having a knife held up to your neck and....ok ok let's just take another example ... I can't think of anything to get out of that ...and I can't hear any suggestions.
Anyway , let's say you are in a problem and noone seems to be able to help . Then you have to think of it from the outside . Phrase the issue in the form of mathematical equations and start solving them . Not every thing can be calculated , but believe me almost everything .
It does seem easy to do but it's really hard to apply . It just needs a little bit of concentration and a lot of trusting your own judgment.